CRY INSIDE

Again I sit here and cry inside, 
Hoping that what you have just told me isn’t the truth,
Holding on to the hope that the love that I have for you will always show through,
But then again, I believe deep within, that the love you have for me will never be enough,
And that the love you feel from me is not going to make you happy,
I know you know in the relationship we have shared,
I have given you what I can,
But I can’t keep giving you everything,
without getting something in return,
All I feel I am receiving is pain, coldness and you leaving me behind,
I feel my soul dying, from the fear of loneliness, as each day goes by,
I feel my heart breaking a little more,
because you seem to grow further away with each passing day,
I have tried talking with you, I have tried fighting with you,
This has not been my choice, it has all been yours,
But you just can’t seem to listen to what I have to say,
So I sit here and Cry Inside,
You are the one that has been going on with life without me,
As part of what I thought we wanted,
and for this I will now let you make your decision on what you want,
Who will make you happy and how you want to live your life,
But please, please tell me so I can move on,
to finally find the happiness I long for, that I so long for in my heart,
Please let me know, so I can save my soul from the arms of death,
As I sit here and cry inside,
I will never show you a tear again, I will never raise my voice again,
I will never show you the pain I feel when I am hurting,
I will always love you in a special way, but please 
don’t make me sit here while I cry inside,
I have suffered enough pain in my life,
now is not the time to cry, but to smile and be happy,
I have yearned to be happy,  I have been happy with you
but now is the time you make me cry inside,
Now there is no tears that you  can see, but trust me they are here,
I long to be held to make everything go away, but I know that isn’t a cure,
but I wouldn’t have to cry inside,
you have to make a decision, which one do you choose,
If it’s not me but it is her, I will understand that our love wasn’t enough,
You stand alone to make this choice, with no interference from me,
You know now what there is to know, you know how I feel,
I love you, but I know it isn’t enough against the choices you have to make,
So for now, Just let me sit here and cry inside.